So with the bomb being dropped,
I'm trying to figure out how I can make things happen.
I'm stressssssedddd out.
I'm so stressed out
1. i want to sleep
2. i can't sleep
3. i can literally feel my hair starting to fall out
4. i have aged 5 years at least in the last 48 hours
5. i'm not sure if i'm having a heart attack or a panic attack
6. i took 3 antidepressants today hoping that it would help
7. i can no longer fake it from my kids
8. drove by the rental shacks today that I could afford and my 8 year old freaked out on me. freaked out as in he locked the doors and told me there was no way he would ever get out of the car - let alone live there.
9. i'm trying to decide if I should dye my hair brown.
***let me clairfy - the hair will be to its original color (after 20 years of highlights). So, wether I do it or my hair goddess does is - is the only question.
10. my laptop is going back
11. my heater will be turned OFF and anyone in my house will be wearing all the clothes they own
12. i will stop garbage collection at my house and just take mini bags of garbage with me where ever i go. (might just start at reduction)
13. toilet paper will be taken from public restrooms.
14. the $10 I pay for basic cable will be turned off
15 the internet will also be turned off..... heck if I have no laptop - theres no need for internet. problem solved there.
16. self phone minutes will be reduced
17. i could become vegetarian... as meat is to expensive.
18. i'm going to live by candle light.... as that's cheeper than light bulbs.
19. powered milk? think the kids will drink it? Or i can get a galloon of whole milk and dilute it with 3/4 water.... BAMMMMMM 4 gallons of milk???? right.
20. get some sort of job??? where? doing what?
21. sell my: bed, dresser, leather couches, pampered chef pans, camping stuff???
***but if I sell that stuff then what do I sit on, sleep on or cook out of?
well I guess if wont matter if I'm homeless.
FML
